Its really saddening, yet happy that this day has finally come. The relationships each of us have with each other is truly unbelievable. The commanders we have are amazing and fun bunch of people to know.

Just a little recap on my BMT PTP life.

Hawk Company -04/11 Platoon 4 Commanders.

PC – 2LT “Atas” Sufree

PS – 3SG “Jesus” Yeh Hsun Hao

Sect Com – 3SG “Garang” Lebardo

Sect Com – 3SG “Fair” Shi Xiong

I will never ever forget anyone of them. They are the one who always encourages us, always with us, guiding us and making sure we learn the right stuffs. They are what makes up of Hawk Company Platoon 4, and I’m sure all my platoon mates will think the same.

The punishments we received by our commanders, the various heart to heart talk by PS, PC interviews, and various talks we had throughout my 4 months in Tekong. I’m really thankful for knowing such wonderful commanders, such awesome friends, and grateful for actually being in the PTP batch.

Moving on, life won’t be any easier in the units I will be posted to, but I’ll try to soldier on and not give up!

Thank you Hawk Company Commanders and fellow company mates, without you all, Hawk 04/11 won’t have such an impactful experience ever!

it was a new experience, it was actually fun to a certain extend, but it was hell ya dirty.

with rain almost pouring every single day, there wasn’t a single time to be dry, except for when we just changed into our new uniform.

Shellscrape night was by far the most memorable one.

Well why? Cause it rained throughout the whole night. So we basically slept in Teh-Tarik for the whole night. UNCOMFORTABLE MAX.

but what to do? its the out field and they are training us to be soldiers!

ITU Camp is over too! Ended the week before my field camp week.

I must say this 2 weeks have been quite eventful.

Glad to have this monday off!

Cheers

These past 7 weeks have been good, with good training given in order for me to pass my IPPT. All of my stations have improved ever since I took my last napfa test. It feels good, to be fit. But I wonder how that will last.

Book in Lo!

Oh and I bought all demi’s album! Awesome!

Missed so many people, especially you.

I’m sorry for everything, I hope you wouldn’t be angry with me.
I hope to see you soon.
Imy.

I’m sorry for the times I’ve argued with you over the phone, SMS, tweets, msn.
It was wrong of me to start those arguments.

And for yesterday, yes, I wanted to surprise you by coming down to visit you and to even talk to your Bf and friends. Are you surprised? I’m not that of a unreasonable dude after all ya?
Why I did all those?
I’ll explain to you when I meet you face to face soon.

It was really good to see you once again. The hugs, the talk.
I enjoyed every moment of it.
It’s my best time of the week.

I promise to treat you better.
I promise to make you a happy girl always.
I’ll wait for you, forever.
Don’t leave me k?

It has only been a day since we met, and I’m honestly missing you a lot already.

Even though you didn’t send me a morning text today, I wasn’t angry with you at all.

I was just worried, as if something had gone wrong.

I wanted to call you and text you, but I didn’t feel that it was the right thing to do.

So I waited for the call, to let me know you’re home safe.

And that was what I needed badly today, thanks.

It was really great to hear your voice again.

I know the journey will be tough from here on.

But I don’t want you to forget the good times we had.

I treasure every single moment with you, be it good or bad times.

It will be lodged in my mind forever, I promise.

I know I haven’t been a really been myself lately, but I promise to change.

I will be the Justin you used to know, the one that makes you laugh all the time.

I want to see you happy, I’m always happy when you’re happy.

I’m sorry for all the nonsense I’ve said and done to you.

I can honestly tell you that I’ve been thinking a lot recently.

Thinking about all the times we had, thinking about the good times.

I want to relieve those moments, but only if you could allow me to.

I wish for that chance to come.

It feels hostile, it feels as if you’re treating me differently.

I hope that isn’t the case, and its just me thinking too much.

IMY,

Justin.

I very much thank you for the past few days for spending it with me.

Though I admit that there are many f***ed up moments, I seem to remember the happy times more.

I apologize for pissing you off these past few days, or maybe even weeks. I hope you’ll forgive me.

I like your company, I wish I could spend every single day with you.

But there are times where times where we won’t be able to meet so often, which is coming pretty soon.

All the wish I made, was all for you. For your happiness.

I know the days ahead are going to be tough, real tough.

I will wait for you forever.

Justin.

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you’re gone it won’t stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It’s like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes
Man, I wish that I could stay and I can’t lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight
And I
Cause I just can’t take it

I know it feels like forever
I guess that’s just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Until that day
There’s nothing else that I can do
And I just can’t take it
I just can’t take it